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Rainy Season [07 Nov 2010|06:00pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Well, it's officially the beginning of the rainy season and even though I love rain, my mood isn't good at all.  It was fine earlier but then it slided downward.  People and events keep reminding me about my low self-esteem, which I'm pretty good at keeping hidden from the world.  I mean, come on, there's no reason to share with it everyone all the time right? Well, I have a particular friend who does.  She kept talking about how ugly she is, how she needed to go workout, and this and that, to the point where I wanted to smack her! Come on! Enough already! What gets me is that she's barely a size 1, which brought the fact that I'm an overweight, short, ugly girl to the forefront.  I don't want to sit there and comfort her when I'm much much worse.  She's taller, thin, and every freaking guys that see her seem to go crazy for her and she's complaining? Why? I don't get it!! Sometime, it drives me crazy, but I don't want to ruin a friendship so I put up with it even though inside I'm slowly crying to myself, because, really, if I was as thin and tall as her I would be so happy.  Sometime, I think she's only saying all that to get me to tell her she's pretty or to compare myself to her.  Mean right, but that's my low self-esteem talking there. Oh, it's gonna be a long day.

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Rain = Moody?? [17 Oct 2010|01:14pm]
[ mood | moody ]

What a moody day today!! Well, yup, it's raining here in my part of the world and for some reason, the rain always make me sentimental!! Geez, I'm thinking too much of course :(

Things keep popping in and out of my head, some of which are best left in the dark, hidden from the world forever.  I really don't need to remember old memories, old dreams, wishes, and fantasies.  I also don't want to think about current disappointment, regret, and sorrow.  Best to forget it all, let it all wash away with the coming rain.  It's a blank, dark, moody day and I wish to forget it all.  So rain, rain, wouldn't you please take all my sorrow and wash it all away?

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Writer's Block: Nothing ventured, nothing gained [04 Oct 2010|01:31pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

What is the biggest mistake of your life so far? What did you learn from it?

Biggest mistake? Listening to my parent a lot more.  Yes, there're still time but reflecting back on my action growing up, I do wish I have listened and followed through, since for sure, I wouldn't be in the situation of regret that I am in now.  No, I don't want to follow everything they've ever told me to do; I like my independent nature.  However, there are areas that if I had only listened to them, I would be so much better off.  Isn't it always too late when you finally realize that your parent is right?  I should have done this instead, or it would have been better if I had done that.  Either way, it really is a mistake that I can only learn from in the end.  There's no changing the past, only to learn from it and change my actions for present day and hope for a better future.

One major example would be my current financial situation.  My parent have always been a sticker for saving, for not spending too much, and saving everything.  Well, thinking that I had a good enough job, I took on more responsible than I should (helping relatives with money is a bad idea when you're just started working!!!), spend too much on unnecessary, nice, but definitely unnecessary things, and now much try to balance everything.  It's a constant headaches, causing stress and anxiety every month.  ~sigh~ what to do, I wasn't born rich.... Now I am learning to control my spending, save whatever I can use, and live thifty.   Not the ideal situation for a college graduate with a decent paying job but hey, what can I do, this is the real world now.  Now, if I can only remember what else my parent told me "NOT" to do before I do it, I might actually be able to say that I've learned something.
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new obsession!! [29 Feb 2008|07:53am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Somehow, in a weird way, I came across some music and found it very enjoyable to listen to.  Did a little research and you'll never guess, it was by this Korean boy band DBSK (Dong Bang Shi Ki) or TVXQ!!!  Quickly, I learn that they're the most popular boy band in Asia right now.  Guess I'm late in the coming huh?  No matter, their songs are very good, their dancing are cool, they're entertaining, and they're super HOT.  I'll admit, there are of course one or two member(s) whom I prefer, but as a group, they're fabulous (not that I need to tell anyone).  I really enjoy watching their PV, concert, and talk shows.  Funny thing was that I actually watch one of their PV years ago, I think when they were still new and I thought they were good then also.  All in all, I've just found my newest obsession!!!

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What Do You Have To Say? - My Plans For The Holidays [23 Dec 2007|01:35am]
How are you spending the holidays?
 With friends and family and a whole load of foods and cheers!!!!
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